Saturday, December 03, 2005
I think I almost died last night. Been staring at the ceiling whole night and I can't sleep until this morning. But I think I felt better today. My appetite's back and I peed more today! Means I'm out of dehydration already. Hahaha.
Well, it's been fun today. Had a little food in the morning and went to Lot1 with my eldest sis. She's so sweet to me today! We shopped around cos she wanted to buy accessories for her company's D&D tonight. Then she asked me if I wanted anything. Haha. So I got myself a pair of purple rose studs too (: After that she treated me to Yami Yoghurt too. Then I said I wanted that green Adidas watch for Christmas. Think it's a tad too much for Christmas so she agreed to buy for me on my birthday instead. YAY! I'm so so happy today! So, I told her she could get me a Eeyore handphone cushion from Mini Toons for Christmas. I like practical stuff for presents. Haha. But when we went up, we only see a handful of piglets and ONE pooh cushions. NO Eeyore at all! Then I told her she could buy me the pooh first and I went elsewhere to see if there's any Eeyore in other Mini Toons. Then I shall give that pooh to somebody. But come to think of it, it's rather weird. So I told her I shall keep the pooh for myself `cos it's something she bought for me. From her, FOR ME! So it doesn't matter whether it's pooh or eeyore or that weird piglet. After that we went to Watsons and saw that Eeyore bulu pen I wanted. I said she can buy for me to make up for the missing Eeyore. Hahaha. It's abeit bo liao but I'm HAPPY! I also helped her with her make-up today, and I'm quite satisfied with my masterpiece. =D
I've always thought of myself as a rather matured person. Perhaps it's due to the environment I'm born in. I'm sort of forced to become sensible. But come to think of it, how can be a impulsive person be matured? I do things according to my mood. Sometimes I even let my emotions take over me. I skip school when I'm lazy. I don't do homework. I don't study.
But I try to change a little recently. I try to curb my temper when I'm home. I try giving my mummy's massages. I try to listen to her. I try not to talk back. I try helping my sis to download songs, upload pictures and all the other technical stuff. I try to let her use the loo first. I even try to talk nicely to my father. I try to complain less when he smokes. I try not to give him dirty looks even if he did something I disagree with. I tried alot of stuff. And it surprised me that it wasn't that hard to do. It's just a moment of action. Think a bit more. It doesn't hurt you to do so. There's so much things we could do to make everyone's lives easier. And I guess it really, just take a little bit of effort.
I never told my mother that I love her before. It was the hardest thing to do. Believe me, you know it. But I did it that day! Someday when we were watching TV, there's this lady who says that she told her mum she loved her but her mum said she was disgusting. Then I suddenly turn my mum and say, "Don't say I'm disgusting k! I love you, Mummy. I'm scared that if I don't say it now, it might be too late again." She laughed it off. But I know she appreciated it. It's weird. But I'm so happy that I've said it out.
I heard somebody commented that the days spent with our families were actually so short. It's true. Let say you lived with your family for 30 years before you got married. 30 years of it, more than 15 years are spent in school. Most of the time when you are studying, you are with your friends. When you are having holidays, you want to go out with your friends again. How much time do you spend with your family actually? Then when you graduated, you go out to work. You'll probably reach home in the night and all you wanted to do is to sleep. How long do you see your parents a day? My sister reach home every night around 9 and she goes to sleep before 12. Minus half an hour of shower, half an hour of eating. She sees my parents for less than two hours a day. And if someday when she got married, I'll probably see her only a few times in a year.
It's scary. When you realised that the time you could spend with your family is getting lesser and lesser. Sometimes I felt so regretful that I've been such a wilful kid in the past. I hasn't really been close to my family. It feels awful when you realise your family are so far away from your heart. Friends are always on the top of my priority. Even my sister knows it. Until my sis wrote it in one of my testimonial, then it really hit me hard that family are the ones that are irreplaceable. It's true, friends come and go but she'll be the only one who will stay by my side no matter how detestful I'm. Erh....ok.
I don't know what I'm writing this for. But there's just something I need to get off my heart. Be nice to your family, lah k. It is actually not much to ask for and what we should do.
That explains why I'm happy today =D
"Faaaaaahed" @ 12:06 PM
